The day my mother passed.

Hi,

My name is Eddie. I just wanted to share with you the events that lead up to the day my mother passed away. The days leading up to October 15th 2009. I had been working all through the night for the past 16 days straight. I was painting the interior of the house featured on the second page of my website. The night of the 14th of October i had went by the house i was painting one last time to touch up a few areas. I had finished up around 3 a.m and i normally would have just went home until the sun came up and me and my fiance would have went to visit my parents later on that day. But on this particular day i felt drawn to my parents house. So i packed up my things and i headed out to their house. I had a key so i didn't wake anyone entering the house. Around about 5 a.m. my mother woke and came out from her bedroom. I remember she had the biggest smile on her face once she seen i was setting here in the kitchen on the computer. Normally my mother could not stand on her feet for more than a minute before she would have to set down because she had chronic pain in her legs and feet from the diabetes she had and was managing it pretty well. A few months back she started having trouble with her right foot. It had started turning colors and she went for treatment. It all of a sudden started getting better. On this morning of October 15th when she came to me at the computer i had noticed that she was walking so much better and she was having to hold onto anything while she was walking. She made it to me here at the computer and she placed her hand on my shoulder as she was looking at the photo's i had uploaded to my website. She stood here and commented on the house and the colors that was chosen by the home owners. She then turned and went to get her something to eat and then she turned to me and asked me if i would go to Hardee's for her? I said sure mom just let me finish up what i am doing and i will go. So she went to the living-room and got her Debit card and brought it in here to me. I finished up and i went and got what she wanted me to get. When i returned she said she had been craving the Hardee's Biscuit & Gravy for a long time. I was proud to be able to get her something that she wanted. I went back to the computer were i sat wasting time with the guy i was leasing a house from that was giving me such a hard time. I ended up wasting a couple of hours going back and forth with him and finally i broke away from the computer and went and talked with mom for a while. This is when she told me that she was proud of me and that she loved me. She gave me a talking to about how i keep things bottled up inside. She said that she understood why i did that because that was how she handled things in her life. But she went on to tell me that is was not the right for her to do and that she did not want to see me continue on with my life doing the same thing. Her exact words were " Just say it"! If they don't want to hear it or if they ignore you then the burden is then on their shoulders because you then had made the effort to clear the air. She said just say it! I said mom, I Love you! She smiled and said i love you too son. When i was here at the computer i happened to notice that mom was walking straight and not using her cane. I noticed that she was not limping and holding onto things in order to get around. I noticed that she did not have that look on her face as if she was in pain. I seen a person i had not seen in sometime moving around like the pain had lifted and she had made it through the ordeal. Things seemed to be perfect for her on that day. I was so proud of her. She had started a new medicine the night before. Well it was the same medicine that she had been taking for a while but they had upped the dosage. I just took as the medicine was working for her and that was the reason she was getting around so good. But now i look back on how things played out i know that god had taken the pain away from mom. This is how God works in mysterious ways.

We had finished up our little talk and i had to go home to get ready to go do a pressure washing job later that day. So i came back to the computer and finished up what i needed to get done. I popped my head back into the living-room and told mom that i Loved her and that i needed to get going. At first she didn't hear me. I said MOM! I love you and she replied I love you too. I told her to call me if she needed anything. I continued on my way home. I got to the house and i had just managed to get into the shower and my fiance knocked on the bathroom door frantically and said something but i could not make out what she was saying so i continued on with my shower. A few seconds later she came back and knocked louder and spoke louder this time i heard her but i could not believe what i had just heard. She said "Your MOM JUST DIED"! I freaked out and i about came running out of the bathroom naked. I could not focus on putting my clothes on. But i managed to get some of them on and i came running out trying to gather my keys and wallet and things. Of course they was not where i had laid them down at. She had done took off with them down the stairs as we lived in a split foyer. So i ran out the door got the keys and i could not quit shacking enough to put the keys in the ignition. I finally got them in the hole and i took off. I do not remember the drive from our house to my parents. But my fiance told me later that i was passing oncoming traffic in blind curves and speeding like a mad man. I can belive it because i was totally beside myself because i had just left her house and everything was fine. In fact the seemed to be better than i had seen them in a long time for my mother. I got the house and the EMS had taken off with my mother. My dad, oh my God my dad.. He was setting in his chair when i walked in the door and this was the first time i had ever in my life seen my dad cry. I lost it. I could no longer keep control of myself. I finally pulled myself together because we was going to the hospital and this gave me hope that they would have been able to revive her either on the way to the hospital or after she got there. But i was confronted with the chaplain and i knew right then it was not going to be good news. The surgeon came into the conference room and said that they had pronounced her. My world stopped turning! I could never have ever imagined a world without my mother. She has been my support group when everyone else doubted me and put me down. She was always the one that encouraged me to stay focused on my dreams and reach for them! She said you can do it if you just want it bad enough to do what it takes to get it. So now this has became the fuel in my engine of life. My mission now is to reach for everything i have ever told my mother i had wished for in the past. For this is how i know i will make her proud. This is what she stood for! This is her wish for me. I love you mom and thanks for everything you have ever done for me in my life. You was the most carrying, compassionate, giving, comforting impression on my life. Even though you never had much yourself you would go out of your way to make someone elses life a little easier to bear. This is a genuinely unique quality that you have instilled into me. But you have made the effort to correct the flaw that comes with being this way. That being not to hold my feelings inside. Not to have such a generous heart because some people can and will take advantage of you for this. This was the last lesson in life you taught me the day that you passed away. God only takes us when our mission in life has been filled. God rest your soul mom and save me a spot. Watch over me and my father (your husband) Kathy,Emily, Linda,Tim Heather, Chelsea and everyone else you have touched with your loving heart.. Guide us with your lessons you have left behind. We all miss you and we will for ever love you. Till we meet again, your son Eddie Jones.

Thanks for taking the time to read this blog and i hope that this will help you in your own special way.





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